During my early days of serving God, I remember being asked to share my testimony for the first time. This was one of the very first ministry assignments I ever had. I was hardly 17 years old. I walked up to the podium and just stood there. I don’t know what exactly I said, but it was only about three or four words, and then I ran back and sat down. I had prepared in advance what I wanted to say, but once I was actually up there, I was so scared. It was a long time before I could overcome this fear.
I’m sure all of us have had some experience like this where we’ve felt inadequate and have had these thoughts of “I don’t measure up.” … Even if we have 25 years of experience in our job or ministry, we still face feelings of unworthiness or lack confidence. Sometimes it has to do with something in the past: our childhood, our teachers or our friends calling us names. Regardless of where it came from, it affects us deeply and seems to follow us wherever we go.
We can so easily be discouraged when we look at others and compare ourselves with them. We don’t realize our acceptance and usefulness to God has nothing to do with our abilities. We can only see where we fall short.
When we feel like we don’t measure up, the answer is not to try to compensate by covering it up one way or another. It’s just to honestly say, as Moses did, “Lord, all I’ve got is a stammering tongue.” Then God can reply by saying, “The weak, fragile, dry stick in your hand, that is good enough. I will make you strong.”
It is when we come to the end of ourselves that God can work. Galatians 2:20 says, “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me.”
Whatever the Lord has called us to do, I pray we will understand that our weakness plus Christ’s sufficiency equals absolute victory.
May the Lord encourage you in your support of the work in Asia—it is a blessing and joy to see God move mightily through His people. May God bless you!
Some of this material appeared on Dr. K.P. Yohannan’s blog on July 18, 2019. You can find the entire post at https://kpyohannan.org/2019/07/18/dont-measure-up-what-is-in-your-hand/